Celestial Light Guidance

I remember studying the concept of shadow work while in school. It both intrigued and terrified me. The idea of facing the aspects of myself that I truly felt at discord with did not sound like anything I wanted to engage in, even though deep down a part of me knew that this was a process that I would greatly benefit from.

It strikes me now thinking about it how I recall having the thought that if I had shadow aspects, that would make me even more of a wreck that I already was. I struggled with very low self-esteem for most of my younger years, and though most looking from the outside in would likely say I had nothing to cause me such struggles I will say I get that, but also nobody in this world knows that I was truly carrying in my heart and within my experience except for me.

So, thinking that having shadow work to do would really reflect negatively on me as a person, I avoided it at all costs. Sure, I acted the part and in graduate school did all the things to move through the motions but anything that truly came up to be seen, I shoved right back down faster that you imagine. I thought I was really making something of myself, expanding my education and even graduating with honors for both degrees and then working in a job where I was being of service to others in a way I had always dreamed of. In reflecting, I see how I was building a house on sand by avoiding doing so much of my own work. I was trying to master the game of life without really playing is what the energy of it feels like now to me.

I have been actively doing shadow work I would say for the last 4 years. I started really slow, but things have picked up rapidly in the last year particularly. The memories coming up from the depths of the ocean of emotions that I hold within me are nothing short of intense. Some I turn away from, not yet ready for what I am being asked to face. So I feel like I am running towards, grateful to face them head on and alchemize them into the totality of who I am.

In meditation I heard this and was guided to share: “The end of suffering will come when all of humanity learns to open its hearts towards each other through kindness, compassion and a desire to understand rather than through the ego, where fear runs the show and self preservation takes priority, creating division rather than unity.” However, we can only fully open our hearts to each other if we’ve fully opened our hearts to ourselves first…..

What does this have to do with shadow work you might be thinking? We all possess both light and darkness within, yet the avoidance of acknowledging our darker aspects often leads us to an imbalance of that energy within us. To live peaceful, heart centered lives we have to feel that way internally – we have to feel peaceful about who we are completely, the whole package. All of our light and all of our darkness. How do we do this?

We integrate our dark by facing it, acknowledging it, and loving ourselves regardless of it. Doing this is how the dark aspects of ourselves become integrated, and we become whole.

I’ll give you an example, a personal one. I used to have a hard time managing my anger, a really hard time. I’ve learned this is because in large part, I avoided feeling as much as could and then with too much emotional energy in my body something would trigger me and I’d lose it.

And after I lost it came the shame for how I had acted. I would let that shame hang over me like a heavy blanket, weighing me down. It intensified my insecurities and my low self esteem. I would ask myself, what kind of person acts like that? It took me years to acknowledge the answer: one who is hurting.

I found the answers and the healing that I needed in facing my pain head on. I found the sense of peace in looking into my darkness, once I allowed myself to finally go there.

Today the angels are guiding the collective to know that it is safe to face your shadow aspects, whatever they may be, and this is going to help not only you move forward in our ever changing world, but it will help the collective as a whole because remember that your internal energetic state is rippled out and seen within the larger collective that we all are a part of.

Seek peace within, and you will experience it in your external world no matter the circumstances being played out on Earth.

I love you, don’t stop. I’m not going to, so you can’t either okay? We didn’t come this far just to quit now!🤍